it's been about a year since i stopped crying everyday and about a month since i stopped crying every sunday. it's been a yr and a half since i let go of my mom's hand at the hospital and i feel like i'm just starting to come out of the first hell of grief.
it's been about 5 months since i first felt the inkling of change in my life, or more specifically, saw a new 'path' before me. whatever that was...
it's been 4 months since joining eh, a huge change...
it's been 1 month since leaving my home church of nearly 30yrs, to explore this 'change.'
i'm giving away the things that i've collected over the years and am paring down to the things i'm willing to pay to keep.
change: make or become different. alter.
the pastor of the church i visited this month said a curious thing. he said that we all experience a season of change in the middle of our lives. most commonly known as the midlife crisis. but what that change consists of is the shift from the external journey to an internal journey. meaning, the first half of our lives is spent primarily on building our external lives: education, marriage/family, career and home. once that's settled, the second half of our lives is then primarily focused on building the internal life, of mind, heart and soul. or at least should be anyway. many often go astray, in mistaking the shift from external to internal to one that is external to another external. in order to continue on the path of wisdom and maturity, one must recognize this shift w/the right perspective. otherwise, we simply end up running on a hamster wheel...
how am i to seek this internal journey?
in some ways, or maybe in a lot of ways, i actually feel as though i've done the opposite. that i've been focusing on the internal and have let the external things of life just 'collect' over the years. in some ways, i feel as though i'm waking up to the part of life that IS external and recognizing it and giving it due diligence. intentionally. for once.
hmm. that's food for thought...
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