MAAAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!

i'm !@#$%&! mad!!!!
my !@#$%&! !@#$%&! of a sister in law calls me in the middle of the nite to leave me a freaking msg about NOTHING! and now i can't go back to sleep.

i'm not upset over the sleeplessness. i've had other sleepless nites. i'm feeling utter anger over my NONFAMILY.

my !@#$%&! of a dad just can't appreciate the family that he's got. he complains about giving money to his !@#$%&! grandkids. SO DON'T GIVE EM ANY!! he complains that his kids don't visit enough. and then when they do, he cancels on ME and complains. !@#$%&!!!

my !@#$%&! brother comes to town and calls everyone and their grandmother but his own sister. even comes to my church and doesn't bother to let me know. !@#$%&! EM ALL.

my sister in laws are either too !@#$%&! self-absorbed, self-pitying or self-glorifying to have any amount of decent conversation.

i exist apart from a family.
and my nonattempts at finding my own are so pathetic i can puke.
!@#$%&! it. i'm living my life.